Not Goodbye Just Until

You are a liar. 
You are the worst kind of liar. 
You are the kind of liar who said 

everything I wanted to hear.   

I tell myself these things to make

 this rejection feel better. 

I tell myself that you will never think of me.

I won't even have a place in your memory.   

You tell me not to cry, not cry for the loss of you.
But the tears come in random parts of my day.
I feel the wretchedness of what life

will be like without you there.

Yet when we were together 

we were breaking up.
It was like a tiny spark

 that burst into fireworks raining down.
That kind of fleeting love lasts

 such a short time.

I can still picture your face, 

your warm cocoa eyes
and that same sweet smile in every picture.
I ache with the massive sadness

 knowing it really was goodbye.

Just until are the kind words of a lying man.
A man who swept me up in the fantasy.
I am forever a changed woman.